The Need of You...

I need to be with you, so i can comfort you with the most incredible joy. I need to be with you, cause my feelings for you have become even stronger that I can't bare not to be by your side. I need to be with you, close to you,next to you, cause you have become my air and the distance from you is suffocating me. I need to be next to you, cause I long to touch and caress your soft skin, I long to hold you next to me.

I yearn to be inside you so you can wrap yourself around me. I beg to be inside you cause it is becoming insane to be outside you. I yearn to be inside you and in between you so firmly. I yearn to be inside you so my body can heat up and my sweat to drench you. I yearn to be inside you, for there is no closer way to heaven than through the love of you and that's why you are my Angel.

I want to love you always, cause you are a princess and it is my destiny as a valiant knight to save you. I want to love you always happily ever after cause that is how fairy tales end.I want to love you always to see you down this path of life and magic and make your wishes come true. I want to love you always cause you deserve and need the powerful love of a god to provide you with faith and strength. I want to love you always cause I need the grace and love of a gentle creature like you to sooth me forever and only you have that kind of power.

My angel my love grows and grows, we are bonded and bonded, i constantly have you on my mind and it is so beautiful. This feeling will never change and only in time will you see that. You mean so much to me that you can ever imagine. but at least I know for always you will remain to be the happiest, completely fulfilled being ever to walk this earth or be mention in any novel. You are love, and I know you are. That is all I need for always. I need to be with you.

I am in WOW

I am kind of lost for words my Angel. Can you believe that? After spending so many hours talking to you last night, You once again deepen my spirits and moved me immensely. There is no doubt about us. We are a destiny. My Angel you are my rock. We are one. We feel for one another in an everlasting way, a burning way. I thank you for opening up to me. I thank you for believing in me. I could ask nothing more from life and god. Your sweet words extract passion from the debt of my soul.

I feel like I may be rambling on. You have touched me so. My inner being feels as if it has been busted open with the jaws of life. I am exposed! You have a VIP lifetime diamond exclusive contract for my love. My gentle Angel, I must be with you at any cost. It is becoming difficult to be away from you. Yes, the weather is great where you are. I really can do anything from anywhere. It is a must that I can wake up next to you. I have to take care of you. I need to tuck you in and have you fall asleep in my arms every night. I need for you to wake up everyday with god's smile shining on you. BABY I WILL RESCUE YOU!

I am raging. I need to act fast and furiously for the love of you then I must slow down the hands of time to breath in moments of unison with you. We have a need to be, an obligation to do the right thing for our souls. We will be eternal happiness. I want to say vows to you. I want to make contracts of love with you. Notarize my heart my angel, I am a testament and will and proof of higher love. I give you a love of perfection. I wish not to be human with you. I wish to be inhuman with you and love you like an immortal god. I give you a love that will spark legends, myths and fairytale stories of hope and inspiration and folklore for many generations to come. We are the impossible my Angel. We have done it. We have taken a leap in faith for what we feel in our souls. It is the right thing. I am blind around me. I am love within you. You are my work. You are my reward. My Angel I am permanently with you. I am in your orbit and your feelings and love is the gravity that maintains me. I am in wow!

I'm So Open

Your my Angel a blessing from the sky
A prayer answered of mine
and I would love you through for all times

You move me and my heart you make it sooth
So much truth there is in you
take me there a peaceful place with you


I'm so open
sometimes it may confuse
but you will know that I love you
I may be emotional, but I got to let you know
I'm so open
you make me feel i can bear my soul,
you had me at hello
let me say you are my world and you can say ditto


you see girl, you got me out of control
only god and heaven knows
the magic that smiles on my face
is divine presence of you

you are my hope
that keeps my faith inside
a sacrament to life
the shining star i follow in the night


I'm so open
sometimes it may confuse
but you will know that I love you
I may be emotional, but I got to let you know
I'm so open
you make me feel i can bear my soul,
you had me at hello
let me say you are my world and you can say ditto

Emotional Suicide

I am punished, all my life I tried to love, when others were not ready to love me. All my my life I tried to believe when others did not believe. All my life I tried to help when others needed help, All my life I tried to give when others only wanted to receive. I took every experience in my life in slow observation. I tried to understand these experiences and why they make me feel the way I am, I live these experiences as they shaped me into the person that I am. I always knew there were somebody in this universe for me whether they were on this planet, elsewhere or in a spiritual realm. I searched the spiritual realm. I dove deep within my mind spending motionless hours in meditation looking inside myself for all the answers I did not find in life. I took a trip down the rabbit hole only to open my heart which I had shutdown after years of self torture only to find an energy that was pure and packed with explosive power. I said to myself this was my guardian angel, this is what my life planning was about. This is what I had longed for since a child, to be a part of complete fulfilled love, to be held and never let go, to be understood and not shame for my past actions. For my actions only matter to the one that I truly love from the present moment to the future. I should not be balled and chain for my past. I have serve a painful sentence in life when I did no wrong to begin. Things where not great I suffered pain, therefore I tried to become a even better person, when everyone one around me stayed the same. And now fingers point at me for having a split personality, because it is not possible for a person like me to exist. The more real I become, the more unreal things become. I shut myself down once and for all not seeing nor believing in anything, for now I am Shidoshi.(Japanese word for warriors who become dead to the world). My angel I am ready to accept all of you completely, family, children and husband. I must be insane, something must be wrong with me I must have a split personality, you are right cause who in the world could love so much to bear so much pain entering such an emotional suicide. You rescued me, you baptized me in love, you gave me hope, restored faith and slained me. The last thing I wanted to do was to tarnish my image of trueness in front of you, in which I have yet to do, but unknown forces have swayed you from me. Dark forces have blinded you of me, dark spirits put doubt and fear in your heart. I can never ever repair those thought in you neither through lobotomy or heart transplant. You will carry these thoughts forever. There is nothing I can do at this moment but shed my tears to the world, nothing left to purge this sorrow daily in hope that someone knows that a genuine heart had walk this planet, maybe for some it would be inspirational and for others to have hope and live a virtuous life so when that true love comes your way all your debts in life are paid and the riches of love will fill their hearts. My angel I can barely see as I type these words since my eyes are swollen in flooded tears as I blogged my pain and love. I will never allow myself to feel this way again. I swear it. I can not breathe anymore cause you were my air. I can not feel anymore cause you were my senses. It is better to have love and lost then not to love at all. I must appreciate the loving experiences that I had with you for now all they are is just fractured memories and broken dreams. I not only woke up in tears when I was by your side loving you, but now I wake up in tears everyday hurting of you. Until the next lifetime my love meet me by the fountain of light. I will be there in a puddle of tears waiting for your return to me. My mission in life is done. I am not here to be love but only to spread love, hope and faith to help others believe in the impossible and have faith in the darkness.